Have you ever heard a song and thought it sounded good, but it really didn't resonate with your life right then, or touch you deeply? Then you heard it again and thought, "wow."
That's what happened with "Savior, please" by Josh Wilson.
Here are the lyrics:
Savior, please take my hand
I work so hard, I live so fast
This life begins, and then it ends
And I do the best that I can, but I don't know how long I'll last
I try to be so tough
But I'm just not strong enough
I can't do this alone, God I need You to hold on to me
I try to be good enough
But I'm nothing without Your love
Savior, please keep saving me
Savior, please help me stand
I fall so hard, I fade so fast
Will You begin right where I end
And be the God of all I am because You're all I have
Everything You are to me
Is everything I'll ever need
And I am learning to believe
That I don't have to prove a thing
'Cause You're the one who's saving me
My unrelated thought: I read something recently that said, "don't compare yourself to others." I really, truly did not think I did this. But as I began really taking inventory of the thoughts that run through my head there they were! How unnecessary for those thoughts to exist in my mind. I am me, not anyone else. I answer to God, not everyone else. I've always cared what other people have thought, and while in some ways that is fine, it can't be the core of how I perceive myself. This sounds obvious, I know. I know this over and over and inside out and upside down, but I don't. I am going to let people down and not live up to their expectations of me...it is so inevitable. Then I get to see once again that my eyes aren't fixed on God, His Grace, His Glory, how He sees me, how He sees others in my life.
We live in a fallen world that is not going to be exempt from pain and mistreating. Getting tangled up in it all becomes the problem. If we are in Christ we have this treasure, and I'm sure this is one of the many things God is teaching me and creating new in me. I pray that through this fire the impurities are removed and burned and what is left is something to start with.